Dear Heavenly Father,
Today, I come boldly to you with all that I know about what you tell me in your word. Lord, I am hurting so much. You know I have nothing anymore. All that I have ever had was because you gave it to me. I tried to do the best I could with it all. I know I am not a mistake for your word says that I am not. Why my struggle is so hard I feel I will never understand. Nevertheless, I trust you no matter the storm I am in, I know I made a promise to you in 2006, that I would live for you and do it your way. As you know Father, I promised you at that time I would never take my life. That for as long as I am here on earth, I would now do it your way. I pray that as I have or feel I am doing my best. I know you have not forgotten about me. Even though my life is so hard right now. I know you have a plan for my life. I publicly am praying to you. Because I shared with you, I would never hide you in my life. Every chance that I will share with anyone in this world about the goodness you have for all your children. in my life. I do believe you have shared with me that I have a story to share, and I need to tell the world. About you and how you told me as a little girl that one day I was going to make a difference in this world. Did I ever think I would be living a life that is this challenging? I have always believed in you. Have I always been the best child that I could be for you, I know I have fallen short more times than I want to admit? However, I know you know my heart and my thoughts before I do. I know that I am a sinner saved by your GRACE and Mercy. I thank you for that. I thank you for loving me so much that you put your son on the cross for my life. I wish I could promise that I would never sin again, but, as you know and I am sorry that I am not able to never sin again, however, I will do my best not to Lord.
I know Lord I will fall short every time if I make a promise to you that I will never sin again. therefore, I ask you currently, please forgive me in advance Which I already know you have. I know this because again you love me and the world so much that as you show us in John 3:16, For You (GOD) so loved the world, that he (you Lord) gave his (your) only begotten Son, that who so ever believeth in him should not perish but have eternal life. (N.A.S)
I know that you knitted me in my mothers’ womb. Psalms 139: 13 For you created my inmost being.
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well
I know the plans that you have for my life are better than I could have ever imagined you share this in Jeremiah 29: 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you
will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found
yes, Lord today as I pray this up to you and speak your words back to you. I know you hear me, and I need to wait on your perfect timing. I just know your goodness will not come a day late. For father I just am trying to hold on with my hurting heart. I know as I have nothing in this world today. You have me right where I need to be. Until you change my life. I will try to be the best child you made in me. I pray today. Lord as I share my prayer with the world anyone that is hurting or really does not think you are there for them. They see this prayer and know they can pray to you for help with anything they are going through. As you share in your word there have been many before me in your word that were hurting. Nevertheless, you showed us how you came through for them. You will come through for all your children we just need to keep looking up to you for your timing in it all. We need to just sit with you and your word and trust it over anything. This world does not have anything for me but, as I do know you have such a remarkable story for my life. And my readers. Hurting may be here for a while, but your goodness will last a lifetime.
Lord thanks for your goodness even when I am hurting.
I pray that I can make you proud when I am sharing your goodness. To the world. That you keep on directing my steps. Even when I am not understanding why I must hurt at this time.
I pray this in your Son’s name Jesus Christ AMEN!
If you are hurting and do not know where to go. I pray as you see and read. You look up to our Lord and savior. He really knows why we are going through what we are. He is waiting on you to speak with him. If you have been and you are thinking well, why he has not answered you. I can only say there are things that have to lineup before all is worked out for his glory in your life. He is working even when you think he is not .do not give up for he really has not given up on you.
You see my life is not where I want it to be however, it is right where God wants me for this time and place. Sometimes, just as a seed is planted. It takes time to grow. Not all plants grow within a few weeks’ days or even years, I really feel that as a plant grows, we need to have strong roots so, waiting on the lord to have you and me grow are in his timing. He will show up for you while this is happening just keep on trusting and praying. Look for the small miracles. I do believe God shows us them. Even in our tough times. More than you really see when you are hurting.